For me, I am absolutely slamming it in the gym right now. Consistency is great, eating is great, quitting drinking for now has been great. Some non-gym guy even called me a big lad a few days ago. I’m stoked.
Also, the general sentiment in the country regarding social issues has become more radical all of a sudden, and I think it’s forcing our party to do more radical things themselves. A thing I have been calling for for a while now. Let’s hope it takes off and snowballs from there on.
How about you guys?
I’m feeling confident in my long term abilities. I am conducting some operations to gain money and lay the groundwork for organization and while not much is happening in the now I am very optimistic of where my life could be in 1, 5, 10 etc. years. It feels good to feel more like an adult, like the heroes I always aspired to be, and less like a child who doesn’t know what they’re doing. I still have gaps in my confidence in short term day-to-day scenarios e.g. talking to a merchant at my delivery job and stumbling on a word and overthinking it, but I’m laying groundwork to not be a dweeb and it’s not getting at me to the core like it once was.
Also, I felt a nascent distance between myself and my best (and only) friend and it was worrying me about the future. But I talked and it went very well. Confronation and being real is so much less scary and so much more rewarding and less hostile than I think we build up in our heads sometimes. Definitely trying to transition towards being more direct and blunt.
Kudos for the gyming!! As I always tell myself: a fascist worked out today. Gotta keep pace with these fucks 💪 definitely felt good a while back when one of my regular merchants referred to me as “big dog.”
I’ve really been hitting my strides recently, perfecting my routine and getting a lot done. I have a schedule I’ve been trying to follow but I can’t ever seem to get everything done. But I had this sort of apiphany - If I do a little bit of everything on a rotational basis then I can make progress in all areas and not feel like I missed out on something. I feel really productive and don’t get burnt out or stuck doing one thing. It’s very liberating and I don’t feel like I’ve come up short at the end of the day with what I wanted to do. Also I’m finally joining a ML org so I’m very excited about that :)
If I do a little bit of everything on a rotational basis
Do you mean like a schedule? Genuinely asking, it sounds like it’s had a positive influence on you and I’m looking for as many positive influences as I can right now.
What I mean is that I move from task to task in a very short amount of time even though the tasks may be completely unrelated. I find it positive emotionally and productively to allow myself the freedom to change tasks if that’s what I find will be beneficial for me at the time, rather than feeling bored or persisting while for the sake of it. I find it works for me personally. It allows me to enjoy my work more and be more productive. It helps me avoid stagnating in one task for too long because I can always think more about it while being productive in another task. It also feels good, I don’t get so frustrated with things and it allows me more freedom to do things I enjoy.
Yessss rotation helps keep my life feeling human
Simple things.
I’m eating better. A bit more veg and salad. Fewer processed foods.
And I’m able to enjoy reading fiction in Spanish now. I love reading fiction but cannot easily justify the time spent on novels. If I read in English, it’s either theory or for work. But I told myself that I could read fiction if it were in another language. So I started learning Spanish. And at the start of this summer I got through my first full novel. I’m on #4 now, and while I have to check the odd word, I can more-or-less breeze through (at a slower pace than I read in English). So now I can read fiction and improve my Spanish at the same time. It’s been fun, but it is a bit of a chore in the middle, after you’ve learned the easy bits, but before you can fully enjoy native content.
Honestly? None. The war continues to ravage my county, I’m sinking deeper and deeper into depression. I don’t think I can go on for much longer. I see no future for myself, nothing excites me anymore, every day is a chore and I go to bed hoping I won’t have to wake up.
