I feel like every photo of me is fake and I'm really awful looking when people see me in IRL - eviltoast

https://imgur.com/a/gd8lhZo

The first photo is what I think is closest to how people realistically see me as. I just feel like socially transitioning was a mistake, and maybe hrt can’t help me. Keep in mind at the point that photo was taken I was a year and many months in.