Something I have stuck in my head and frustrates me, was from years ago news media talking about PTSD in regards to civilians. The conversation felt very dismissive as if it was not possible to suffer from PTSD unless they fought in a war.
recently I was diagnosed with CPTSD due to a horrific home life growing up. Anyway all this has compounded to were I feel like an outsider.
I know cptsd is somewhat common and I’m wondering if anyone remembers this narrative in the news, and if anyone with PTSD/CPTSD has felt similarly?
It wasn’t really a well-known condition a few decades ago, though i think many veterans suffered from it, they just didn’t know what it was. I was diagnosed with PTSD but not from anything war related.
In fact it’s mostly from night terrors related to something I experienced as a kid, but not anything to do with my home life. I can’t really explain it (and it’s better if I don’t) but I still deal with it. It started as a kid when I was about eight, and I’m not about to turn 65 and I still cannot sleep in a darkened room or any room with a doorway facing the bed.
I can’t explain that, it would be useless to try, and the one person I did expain it to said he was having trauma now also and wished I’d never told him about what was going on. It’s like planting a seed, sharing these horrors and that’s something I don’t want - I just have to deal with it the best I can.