I’m sorry you’re having to deal with that; i swung from that end during my childhood into my currently 240ish (233 as of a few minutes ago apparently) pounds.

I was taken off of appetite suppressing ADHD meds juuuust in time for puberty to hit like a brick and it royally fucked me up long term.

Diet is a shitty tightrope to balance across, especially combined with stress 😞