I feel personally attacked. Don’t worry I realised eventually.

This is me except it’s because of a trail of adminitrative failures leading to my blood tests STILL NOT FUCKING ARRIVING YET ARGGGGHHH

So pretty!!!

This photo goes so hard. Y’all are cool.

Just a quick note to say thanks for the story. It resonated with me a lot. Especially the line

the times I felt male, I really just wasn’t feeling particularly dysphoric

And the feeling of crossdressing not feeling right because it can really make you feel how male your body is and that can be more distressing.

Thanks for this update. I’m so happy to hear about your wife’s reaction. My partner has been an incredible rock for me and is making the process joyful even when the outside world is harsh. You got this Nissa! I hope you stick around and keep posting.

I don’t feel sad about it, but it’s crazy that any true relationship with her is just… done in my head.

I remember that happening to me with me dad. It wasn’t related to my identity but there was a moment where I just realised “I can’t actually rely on you or count on you in any way”. He went from being a parent to being a person.

I also didn’t feel sad at the time, i kindof hardened up and moved on with my life, but I want to say to you that you deserved better, and you should have gotten better from her, and it’s okay to take some time to mourn the fact that you weren’t supported when you most needed it.

I know you will find people in your future who will become your family and be there for you. You will choose them and they will choose you. Wishing you the best.

That’s happened to me a few times reading people on here. It helps so much with imposter syndrome to see yourself in the stories of other people.

I was so paralysed by imposter syndrome before. This place and the people in it are so important to me.

The skulls and flowers are cool!

I mean, agreed on all points, but sometimes I get really sad about how late in life I’m transitioning and I like to imagine gandalf comforting me about it.

Thank you for writing this out. I’m so proud of you.

The thing that stopped me for way too long, that kept me in the closet / in denial, was the thought that other trans people were completely certain about their identity. That they just knew.

Well it turns out most of us were very uncertain, that we had all the same doubts as you have right now. That the first steps to transition were accompanied by massive screaming self doubt and fear. Eventually though, as you accumulated more and more experience, the question “what if I’m not really trans” starts to lose its power as it becomes more and more ridiculous in the face of evidence.

Nobody can tell you who you are, that is for you to decide, but your experience sounds very similar to many trans women.

I think you have a really good idea of who you are. I think you may be more scared of how your life will be uprooted and disrupted if you go through with it. I’m not diminishing that fear. It has been terrifying for me and my circumstances sound safer than yours. The question is, is it scarier than stuffing yourself back into a box you don’t fit in and pretending for the rest of your life that nothing is wrong?

I hope you can find some people close to you to confide in that will treat you with love and acceptance. It’s so much easier when you’re not going through it alone.

Wishing you luck Nissa.

I’m sorry I just can’t help but laugh at you holding on for so long for this and then that being the package you open.

Omg I bought weed off someone once and it was packaged like this. Who TF is asking for this? Anyway glad you got your potions sister.

Congratulations! I’m so happy it arrived OK!

Ada! You’re a shining light. We love you.

Thanks for all the joy you share with us on the daily.

Gorgeous! Thank you for sharing, I love seeing these incredible transition pictures.

Hapoy BirHRTday!

Oof that was right in the feels.