what do you do when you feel doubts? - eviltoast

I can’t seem to shake imposter syndrome or doubts about whether I’m “trans” or whether I’m a woman, etc.

Just wondering what you all do when you feel that way, if you have any recommendations?

It makes me feel awful, there is so much commitment to a transition it feels like you have to be certain, but I just don’t have constant certainty.

Sometimes I’ll sit down and try to analyze it objectively, basically considering the “null hypothecis” - if I am not trans, then I would be cis, if I were cis then a certain set of things would be true (like, estrogen would probably not feel so great, testosterone would not make me depressed, etc.).

  • RachelRodent@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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    2 months ago

    hey the fat distrubution thing is relateable to me too. I think getting old while on hrt would be good enough to not “get robbed off my gender”

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      2 months ago

      yes, especially at your age - most of the androgenization of my body happened when I was in my 20s, so preventing that would be massive!! It can be harder for us trans-laters, but I still think most of us recognize it’s worth it. Honestly, I couldn’t even give myself the hope of being a woman in the world, my transition goals were / are oriented around things like mental health. If I ever manage to integrate into cis-normative society and live passing as a woman it’s beyond what I am willing to let myself dream or hope for.

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        2 months ago

        As long as it eases dysphoria it would be worth it I think. Also I saw a lot of timelines online of people who transitioned when they were older. A lot of them passed and the others were atill really pretty even though didn’t 100% pass. So I would say neither of our cganches are bad.