How has everyone been since they last posted? Is there anything we can do as a community to help you?
Is there anything you would like to talk about but don’t want to make a whole post about it?
I’d love to hear from everyone if you are feeling up to responding and chatting about how you are doing.
(CW: SUICIDE) I attempted suicide in 2017 around this time of year. I thought, after surviving, that I would turn things around. That things would get better. Instead they got worse. I’m not suicidal now, but I am more of a mess than ever. My anxiety skyrocketed since. I became much more reserved. I barely recognize myself some days. Metaphorically. I still have my good looks, lmao. Unironically grateful for that, even if no one ever sees me.
In the past few years, I went from independence and living in the same town as my friends, back to living with family in a hometown that I don’t want to be in, which has cratered what little pride I had.
But what I miss most of all is being able to take long walks to clear my head. I miss walking without pain. I miss sitting without pain. I miss being awake without pain.
Chronic pain is an absolute bitch to deal with. Sorry you’re going through that.