Well, even when I had a good job and a lot of money, women were almost never interested or ever wanted anything to do with me. I’m autistic so any effort to blend or fit in never works in a dating or relationship context. I feel like I could either be ungenuine or let my dogshit autist personality run rampant, both of which are unacceptable.

Years later, I no longer have a good job nor a lot of money. It’s almost not even socially acceptable to be living the life I live now. I was unwanted even when my life running well, now I have more pressing and immediate issues to be concerned about. At this point attempting to date anyway would be blatantly inconsiderate and out of touch with reality.