I am having a sort of low grade but continuous panic attack. I have a big conference coming up and I don’t feel grown up enough to network (even though it’s my job) and I have so much to do. Everything feels like a mess and I can’t seem to get enough focus to make any inroads on anything. I am scared of failing. I think I like things better when they are a struggle and I have nothing to lose. For once things are going well and I am so scared of stuffing it up.

Stupid brain