Never finished degree and I feel stuck/suicidal over it - eviltoast

I started uni 2014 and I’ve still yet to finish it because of life BS. Dealing with depression / ADHD has made finishing my degree seem impossible for me to do and I feel like an absolute failure everyday because of it. I wasted many semesters attempting clases and then dropping out when my grades weren’t good.

My parents both graduated by their early 20s and had me at 23; I’ll be 29 soon and I still live with them working at a Walmart to make ends meet and even with that I’m about to be fired for poor performance. I feel depressed being there because I was given everything in life to be successful and yet I wasted my 20s away being depressed / suicidal. All of my friends all have graduated long ago and have better jobs and I get envious seeing them being successful. All I think about is splattering my brains all over the wall.

I don’t have a plan to follow, every day I’m just hating myself for wasting my best years over stupid shit instead of focusing.

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    2 months ago

    It’s not the end of the world. I’m 28 and starting to get my shit back together. No idea when I’ll finish my degree, but third time I’m NOT giving up. And yeah, I have ADHD too.

    Tell us, what are you good at? What are you interested in? What do you want to achieve in life?

    Are you getting treated for your ADHD and depression?