I’ve had this experience. I’m afraid I might also just be crazy though – a schizo. That’s what people online (who are not the “feds” in question) keep telling me. Since I am scrupulously fair minded, I need to face to the difficult task of questioning my own sanity. Here is the gist of it:
I identified as an “involuntarily celibate” male and sought support from people in my circumstance. I found a forum called incels.is. The people posting there purported to be men in my circumstance. I believed it and then shared opinions about my plight and the dynamics of the larger sexual marketplace (re how it’s become polygynous.) Soon after – to my shock and horror – they “took the mask off” and told me that they – the people I was posting alongside – were in fact fed agents. You see, they had in fact shutdown real incel spaces years prior and replaced them with ones operated by DHS because they had deemed incels – a class of males who are only the result of emergent polygyny – as “domestic extremists.” The feds then informed me – by revealing to me personal details about my life and my day to day activity (in own apartment no less) that I was now subject to intrusive monitoring and surveillance. When I step outside people from the creepily named “fusion centers” trail me. So in essence I am in an open-air prison without having committed a crime. Moreover, the feds over at incels.is themselves encourage extremist rhetoric which shapes the public image of the incel class. In short they are generating their own work by censoring incels across web and setting up incel forums where they (feds) larp as extremist incels. They set a trap for incelish men seeking support from their own kind. This treatment of incels is motivated by politics because after Trump’s victory in 2016 the neolib establishment went hard after any MAGA-adjacent spaces. In 2015, incels were among the first to be ecstatic about Trump. But does that mean they should be politically repressed, silenced, and treated as domestic terrorists?
Or am I just crazy?
Part of having paranoid delusions is being unable to accept that those delusions aren’t real. Nobody here going to go to great lengths to argue with you about them. I’d go to the hospital, explain your situation and accept the help they will give you. You already know you can’t sleep and are going to slowly spiral due to that. You know you’re feeling like you’re losing control. The specifics of why aren’t really important, because you also know it would be delusional to think that every healthcare professional is in a conspiracy against you as well. So I’d go get help.