Comrades,

Me, the mods, and admins have come to a unanimous decision to close the community permanently. This decision took days of dialogue between those in favor and those against - but in the end, no matter who was in favor and who wasn’t, we all agreed that whatever the outcome we came to a decision with respect for one another and most importantly, the respect and the livelihood of this website.

I have been on this site for many years now, I have grown, matured, I am a better person now than I was when I first joined here - and still, I am not a perfect person. When I look back on everything I did, many posts I made that were more or less pushing the limits of what is acceptable here, it gave me insight. There’s many things I wish I didn’t do, but hexbear is a beacon of hope for many of those who share these exact same experiences- we are not perfect, but I continue learning, nonetheless. I am unbecoming and becoming a person I want to be not the person the world wants me to be, or the image I’m trying to create in order to receive some sort of following for- no. This in essence is throwing away my very humanity, being someone for the sake of others is ignoring the fundamentals of my being and my role as a leftist.

There is one person who I give my everything to for without them I would not be writing this note. I hurt this person in more ways than you could ever know, and for that I feel the utmost shame in my heart- I know you are reading so please understand that when I say this that I mean it, I never meant to do those things to you. I take full responsibility for my wretchedness for my callous behavior.

With all this out of the way, it’s time for me, for this account to retire. And so, I have to say before I go that I just want you to know- I’ve found a reason for me, to change who I used to be, a reason to start over new- and the reason, hexbear, is you.