Struggling with being Myself - eviltoast

How do you combat dysphoria in order to be yourself? I find myself struggling to dress the way I want to, love the way I want to, and even try makeup because I constantly get a sudden overflow of dysphoria. I can do things for an hour at most until I feel completely shattered. I struggle to combat internalised transphobia too.

Idk, I just feel so stuck and alone in this battle to liberate myself sometimes. I know I have so much potential but my dysphoria shuts me down completely.

There’s also some dysmorphia that may be at play. Not being able to really know what I look like fucks with me to an immense level.