I generally want to be casual in these sorts of relationships where we’re not too serious. In reality, they don’t mean much to me and neither does my relationship with her. However, she does not know this and I won’t tell her what I want.

For example, I hugged her one day and then told her I wasn’t okay with hugs. She asked “Why” and I shrugged. One day, she asked me if I would ever initiate our first kiss (together, not in life). I shrugged again and told her “I can’t say.” Of course, I will not do any of this stuff with her because I don’t show my love that way.

I will tell her I love her now and then and I don’t buy her stuff at all even when she buys stuff for me because I don’t want to be heartbroken by being affectionate. That’s why I like keeping casual relationships and not doing much for others.