God I wanna make so much art (drawing/painting/wood carving/crochet/build things/etc), make comics, learn languages, learn how to deep clean and power wash, garden, make clothes, make fursuits, travel, hike, forage, make youtube videos, go urban exploring, go ghost hunting, animate, preserve animal skeletons and insects, etc etc.
But I’m so perpetually exhausted that even just planning out an idea takes a lot out of me, and it feels so unfair.
Thankfully medication has helped out a looot (I mean the difference between taking genuinely months to do anything vs being able to do so within a week or even a day if lucky is quite an improvement) but it’s not gonna make me superhuman any time soon ^^;
I’m hoping some more non-stimulant meds have been approved; because after 2 years of Atomoxetine, my motivation has come to a screeching halt. My productive hobbies have been dead for a few months, and I’m back to feeling like I have no time or energy to get anything done. This past week has been the worst in a long time with just feeling tired and moody constantly.
I know them feels. I think what I take is a variant of Atomexetine. But then you get laid off for 3 months and it’s hard to justify paying for it out of pocket lol. So now I need to get a new prescription.
It’s crazy how much it helps, but it really sucks when that baseline is pulled out from under you. I hit the bottom hard and I find it more difficult to deal with than when I was consistently unmedicated for years. I have a project this week that is mentally taxing and it was dropped in my lap. Trying to trudge through it the week after taking my very last capsule was not good timing.