My shell cracked this past weekend - eviltoast

Getting hit with a lot of emotions. Some scary and some exciting.

My wife is being really supportive and we’ve been talking through all of this the past couple days nonstop.

Part of me is ready to shave everything and start HRT and feel pretty, but I’m also fucking terrified about how my world will react. It’s also only been a few days but I feel like a whole new world has been opened up to me?

I don’t know. I want to everyone and nobody so I thought I’d scream into the void here. Hope that is ok.

I’m so fucking empowered by all of you

  • macniel@feddit.de
    4·
    1 year ago

    (something I played with around my teenage years but my inner voice said it was “too girly” so I stopped)

    Oh i can relate so much with that! In my Egg time before “now” I always had some phases were I longed for the girly stuff. But dismissed it as a phase, and because i’m a man gods damn it! Like one time on a ren festival wearing a long flowy maxi skirt and a wig, because thats totally just a costume, right :D

    But probably not my family and my workplace is very macho

    Family… yeah… I’m getting anxious just thinking about coming out to my dad and mother. My siblings were totally chill. And Workplace… I hope your country has some checks in place against discrimination.

    And now I realize I can feel pretty. It’s not too girly because damn it I’m girly!

    Heck yeah! Show them who’s boss! Because that’s you, sister!

    • oNevia@lemm.eeOP
      5·
      1 year ago

      Same! I have been counting all the times I shut myself down when I was getting a little too comfortable with my true self.

      Finger nail polish was fun until a teacher yelled at me for being a distraction.

      Shaving my arms and legs was fun until I realized how nice it made me feel.

      Watching my mom put on makeup and wanting to try it until she started asking if I was gay. (I mean yes, but not in the way you think mom 😏)