I just recently started taking generic vyvanse. I noted an immediate change at 20mg. I was happier, more productive, less distracted, no depression, etc. Of course, after about 2 weeks or so my symptoms started to return, so I got an increase to 30. After a month I experienced the same and got bumped to 40. Two months into the 40mg and I am starting to feel like it isnt working.
One of my go-to avoidance routines is doom scrolling or internet surfing for light porn. I have noted that during the past week I am almost compelled to jump on the computer and start searching or scrolling through Lemmy.
I am just wondering if this is a normal progression. At what point does the increasing of dosage stop?
Gotta throw in that I started gabapentin for my anxiety this weekend too, and not sure that is helping or hurting.
Overall, I am just really feeling confused. I am not sure I trust my own assessment of the effect of the meds. This is a lonely place because I dont have anyone around me with experience regarding ADHD medications, so any input is greatly appreciated.
It’s a journey to find the right dosage, and combo of meds. Not to be negative but it took me literal years. Despite the horror of that statement, it was and continues to be worth it.
The “superhuman” feeling at the beginning is normal, and it’s normal for it to fade. Whenever I lapse in taking my meds (new doctor is being a pain in the ass with refills) I get that again for about two days. That high point is not what you should be chasing as a new normal, but to be fair it doesn’t sound like you are. That full superhuman feeling wouldn’t be lasting for two whole weeks, or months.
The meds aren’t going to make you not yourself. They aren’t going to magically change yoir bad habits for you. In fact, they can exacerbate some bad habits by enabling you to focus on them for longer periods of time. It does for me. The meds should enable you to stop yourself when you are making a bad decision and redirect yourself. They should prevent situations where you know what you need to do but can’t will yourself to do.
Discuss all of this with your doctor.