[Engagement from anyone welcome]
Context, informed consent is a thing here and I will likely be starting HRT in the next month or two. Here is what my thought process has been for the last year since beginning to socially transition, although very slowly.
- I should buy feminine clothes
- I don’t want to have to buy new clothes once my measurements (hopefully) change from HRT
- I will wait to buy feminine clothes
- I should practice makeup
- Makeup makes dysphoria worse
- I should start HRT / look into FFS
- I will wait to practice makeup
- I should start HRT
- I haven’t earned that; I don’t dress or present fem
- Kick can down the road for HRT
The good news is I called a doctor last week to schedule the appointment! So things are progressing. Just wanted to see if any guys, gals, or pals have had a similar experience with their transition, or seen someone else go through that.
Some advice that’s helped me is this: Stop saying “should”. “Should” implies that there is some objectively correct action to take in your situation, but there isn’t. Ask yourself if an action aligns with the kind of person that you want to be. You can absolutely do any of these things if you believe they align with your personal values, but you don’t NEED to do anything. Without that pressure of trying to perform correctly to meet some external criteria, you can decide what you want to do based on your own values.
Anyway, I might not be describing the concept clearly, but I hope it’s something that can help you.